UPDATE FROM AARON ON THIS: MAKING PEACE WITH MYSELF!
I HAVE FINALLY JUST ACCEPTED THAT THOTH IS NOT AFFLICTING ME! HE'S NOT STANDING OUTSIDE THE WINDOW ANYMORE, HE IS STANDING IN THE UPPER WINDOW, LOOKING OUTSIDE, THROUGH MY OWN EYES...
IT'S HARD TO LEARN TO SEE YOURSELF AND THEN TO ACCEPT YOURSELF, BUT THIS HAS FINALLY HAPPENED!
LOVE, AARON.